Day Dreaming

I sleep,
I have dreams,
I have nightmares,
Envisioning Life as I wish it would be.

Knowing that things are not what I want
But not knowing how to change it.

I have dreamt of Her,
And seen horrors of her.
Wondered what She is doing,
And hoped that she goes and fucks herself.

I have loved and lost,
But think that that is worse than not knowing.

I wake and the world is new.
I wake and the world is old.
I wake to someone holding me.
I wake and I am alone.

I sleep.
I wake.